adding on

this is happening:

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when we told josephine the news, i thought she already knew it. she’d made comments over the last few months about having a baby in the family and had even casually referred to the baby in my belly. we were lying in our bed and she was between us; it’s her habit to join us in bed on the weekends once the clock says 7. i told her we had some big news to tell her and her eyes lit up. i told her she could guess and i said, “we’re going to have…” and she said, “ice cream!” and i said, “no… we’re going to have… ” and she said, “a party!” and then i said, “we’re going to have a baby. you’re going to be a big sister!” and her eyes grew wide and she said, “are you kidding me? for real life? really!?” and i said, “yes, for real life,” and she laughed and laughed and laughed. it was fantastic.

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she comes up to me and gives my mid-section hugs, whispering to the little being in there that she loves it already. she has big plans for this little brother/sister. big plans. they’re going to share a room and she’s going to teach him/her everything she knows.

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i wonder if i would have gotten pregnant if we were still living in our little apartment.  i’m not sure my body would have let it happen.

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i’m due september 24th. unless this baby is over a week late, all four of our birthdays and ned’s and my anniversary will be within a month of each other. and if the baby’s born a few days early, we’ll all be virgos.

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josephine suggests the name kella for a girl and bidge for a boy. ned and i have longer lists (that don’t include either of those names. don’t tell josephine.)

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the 20-week ultrasound is on wednesday and we don’t yet know if we are going to find out the sex of the baby. josephine wants to, i could go either way but would prefer not to, and ned doesn’t want to. i am guessing we’ll have the tech write it down and seal it in an envelope and torture ourselves with it for a while.

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a few days after we told her the news, josephine gave me a hug and said quietly in my ear, “i’m so glad you let dada do this to you.”

 


4 Responses to “adding on”

  • meg Says:

    so, this post made me cry when i was lying awake in the middle of the night. i love everything about it. love love love love love. is that too effusive?

  • oma Says:

    nope, not at all. i like that we made each other cry with baby-related blog posts. 🙂

  • Christina Says:

    Love that we will have another cousin! Beautiful!

  • auntie mae Says:

    this was a perfect blog post, oma. i teared up, too. could not be more happy 🙂

    i also LOL’d with the last line. ha!